Resurrection: The Untold Story… Continues

the story continues… until time comes to its end.

20170608_150206I am amazed how great God is to me every day. He continues to speak to me and reveal mysteries to me daily. As I listen; I find He provides “Opportunity” to test the revelation. Daily I walk in the truth as he reveals it to me. I can not say I have 100% success.  I always pray for him to give me grace while I practice applying what he has taught me.  Sometimes I find I do not quite understand exactly what he means… So I go back to sitting at his feet and question the truth!  What am I missing?  Where lies my fault.   It is always hidden in ignorance… lack of understanding. 

Every word he speaks reveals something written… I find within the written a spiritual truth that makes me fall down in wonder and awe… why is this not revealed in the church… who says we are no longer under the Law of the Old Covenant.  What God the Father has revealed through the Son, the Written Word who gives me his Spirit… the Spoken Word to interpret the Word in Spirit and Truth… The old is the new and the new is the old… there is no difference… he only reveals it through spiritual eyes.  He has shown me what he sees through his eyes… All things are good because God is good… he is only good.  

My mind is utterly blank… I can not speak a word to express the magnificent glory of the spirit realm.  I have come to a place in my life… I am ready to unload all the things of this world and just be free.  I am free from all the cares of this world  and I enter into a realm where there is no hindrances of the flesh-( the natural man) the world and the enemy.  I come running into the Garden of Eden… the Garden of Pardes… we call paradise.  It is a kingdom of truth, life, light and love.  In this kingdom there is no fear of evil. Once one can grasp that all things are good it breaks the power of fear.  For it is written… perfected love drives out all fear.    

I have come to several crossroads… the valley of decision…that moment that I know it will change my forever.  I must make the right decision or it will change everything. I can not risk losing what I have found… a precious treasure… Truth. I have been Resurrected and I will not turn back. 

If I could put into words all the visions I have seen in the spirit that have transformed my life it would be volumes not just a book.  We all have a story… if we all wrote our story… from the beginning of time in the Garden to the end of time… the world would not be able to contain all the books written of mans encounter with God. 

I find myself longing for more of him; less of me… to the point I cry out I want all of you none of me!   Little did realize He would test the cry of my heart.  It shook me to my core… it caught me off guard.  Am I willing to give up my dream, my business, my family, my church, my friends, my finances, my farm, all my animals- dogs, cats and horses and my possessions… everything that expresses who I am… to have all of him? 

  At first I felt panic… I questioned myself…Was there sin that all this evil had come upon me?   The more I prayed the more things turned for the worse… I turned to fasting and worship without interference from anyone or anything… It was then after the 3rd day… It happened… as clear as Me speaking to myself… I hear the Spirit speak. ” You declared you want all Of the Father; you must let go of everything that takes up room where he wants to dwell. There is no room for both if you want all of him.”

  I cry… the weeping of my soul so deep… knowing no human could every contain the presence of such a Holy God and yet he chooses… desires to dwell in us and with us… I blurt out  possess all of me… take it all away…just give me all of You.

I learned through my “resurrection” that the Father is moved by worship… A heart full of praise and thanksgiving… I heart humble and broken before his feet… not begging but in awe and wonder!   I have no words… I must depend completely on the Holy Spirit to speak the words I can not find to express what my heart desires to say … perfectly!  The Spirit takes over and I am raptured up into the kingdom once again and find grace and mercy in his presence.  I find he embraces me with such a pure love I am undone… unable to stand on my own; powerless to resist him; I can not say no!  It is only when I come to myself… I find my flesh crucified again… every time I die more to my natural soul-ish self the more I am made a spirit being. 

I have those days I feel like I am not walking on the ground; the earth itself.  I feel like I am walking on the air. I know it is the Spirit but the feeling is just so amazing to not feel the physical realm touching me and I can be free from the bondage of this world. 

  I have only once since my “resurrection” felt human.  I shared this with a christian … who looked at me oddly.  She took it to mean a good thing… I explained NO!   It is not a good thing it is filthy rags… It is the first time I did not feel…  HOLY!  The reason behind it… I could not share… It was between the Father, Son And the Holy Spirit.  It was a test… It was beyond human reasoning… it was spirit.  It is quite easy to deny the flesh its desires… but to deny the spirit is quite another level of surrender.  Would I trust what is written or what God spoke! This war causes a rift in the spirit!  It was only through fasting that I was able to see clearly the test…a “JOB” moment not of sin but of testing… to reveal to the enemy… it is not the blessings (things) that makes me draw nearer to God; nor the  goodness and favor that makes me worship and praise him. I worship and praise him and draw nearer to him just to know him more… to be in awe and wonder and express that awe and wonder to him…It is his love for me… who he is… that makes me worship him. I do not seek his hand except to hold it… to touch him, walk with him… hand in hand… that is amazing… nothing can compare.  I find I do not ask him for anything… but to stay in his presence and to just talk with him a little longer… don’t make me go… back to the world.  So to persuade him to allow me to stay… I begin to worship and dance; to sing in the spirit and speak with my hands.  All these working to tell him thank you for allowing me to come, to know you more, to speak to you face to face.  Let me stay.. and pour out my heart of love to you… though it can never compare to his love for me.  UNDONE!  I wake ruined… for this world… I want no parts of it… even though I live in the world… for the glory of God… allowing him to possess me so he can walk upon the earth and observe… through the disguise of my flesh… just how wicked man is…  as he did in the days of Lot… he sent his angels to descend and see if it is as bad as the outcry coming up to him.

  Scary…knowing God sees everything we see… through our eyes, hears what we say through our ears, knows our every thought and feeling… if he dwells in our mind and heart!  He endures the evil done upon the earth.  For what we have done to others we have done to Him… He dwells in us; if we make room for him… in the Holy Place (mind) and the Most Holy Place (heart).  He only dwells in a clean holy place… his presence will not be defiled by sin… for he is Holy and he must judge sin… grace turns his face… so he does not look upon our sin… what we do not understand  is if he turns his face away from us… he is not shining his glory…his countenance on us… kind of like the phases of the moon… reflecting the light.  How strange it is to know these things and realize that all creation reveals his glory.  He is here… among us… dwelling in SOME Of Us.  His Spirit is Holy why do we honor man more than God, more than His Son, more than His Spirit!  Woe is me!  May I always keep him Holy… set apart… not made common as mere men! 

My time in the kingdom has changed my life… my perception; my understanding.  I continue to learn everyday.  There is no comparison to the Wisdom of God.  It is instead quite humbling as he reveals hidden truth some I can not repeat.  But what he allows me to speak, write, reveal… I did it with zeal and awe of the wonderful privilege and honor I have received to be his vessel on the earth.  I keep this vessel holy so he will have no reason to find any other place to dwell; no reason to leave me or forsake me.  My love for him leaves me speechless… his love for me… overwhelms me.   I let go… let it all go… just to have all of him.

RESURRECTION: UPDATE

THE TREE OF LIFE OR THE TREE OF KNOWLEDGE… OF GOOD AND EVIL … LET GOD RESURRECT THE EVIL TO GOOD, DEATH TO LIFE, DARKNESS TO LIGHT ENTER INTO THE GARDEN OF EDEN WHERE WE WERE CREATED TO DELIGHT IN THE PRESENCE OF THE LORD FOREVER

20170608_150206RESURRECTION THE UNTOLD STORY HAS TAKEN MANY BY SURPRISE.  THE WONDERFUL STORY OF A LIFE RESURRECTED FROM DEATH TO LIFE.  THE FEED BACK IS AMAZING. MANY HAVE COME TO PONDER THEIR OWN SPIRITUAL CONNECTION WITH GOD.  COMMENTS FROM VARIOUS READERS HAVE COME TO SEEK GOD ON A WHOLE NEW LEVEL.  MANY HAD NO IDEA GOD WAS SO INTERESTED IN OUR PERSONAL LIFE.  SOME HAVE DENIED THIS IS AN ACTUAL EVENT; TO THOSE WHO CAN RECEIVE IT ; TAKE IT AND RUN WITH IT… THE OTHERS WELL THEY MAY BE LEFT BEHIND IN THE DUST WHEN THE LORD COMES TO CALL HIS OWN TO BE WITH HIM IN THE GARDEN OF EDEN FOREVER.

I AM EXCITED TO SAY THE BOOK IS BLESSED AND ANOINTED TO TOUCH LIVES AND BRING MANY TO A NEW REVELATION OF “RELIGION”.  THOSE CAUGHT UP IN THE “CHURCH WORKS MOVEMENT” HAD NO IDEA GOD IS MORE DELIGHTED IN TALKING WITH MAN THAN HE IS IN ALL THE BUSYNESS.

MY HOPE… MY PRAYER IS THAT MANY WILL COME AND KNOW THE PRESENCE OF THE LORD… NOT JUST GOD… CREATOR AND JUDGE, BUT TO KNOW HIM AS A GOOD AND PERFECT FATHER, A BELOVED BEST FRIEND AND A KNIGHT IN SHINING ARMOR!

I DO NOT OFTEN SPEAK OF LOSING MY MOTHER AT A YOUNG AGE. IT STILL BRINGS TEARS TO ME WHEN I THINK ABOUT HER AND THEN I REMEMBER THE HOLY SPIRIT IS LIKE A MOTHER.  TEACHING US RIGHT FROM WRONG, LOVING US DESPITE OUR BEHAVIOR…AND DOING ALL THOSE THINGS WE REMEMBER OUR MOM DOING FOR US.  SHE WASHES US, TAKES CARE OF US WHEN WE ARE SICK OR HURT.  MY MOM… SHE ALWAYS STOOD IN THE GAP WHEN WE ACCIDENTALLY DID SOMETHING BAD.   SHE COVERED IT UP OR FIXED IT SO WE WOULD NOT GET IN TROUBLE.  BUT WHEN WE WERE REBELLIOUS… SHE STEPPED BACK AND ALLOWED US TO SUFFER THE CONSEQUENCES OF OUR PRIDE.  AFTERWARDS SHE WOULD ALLOWS US TO THINK ABOUT WHAT WE DID AND AT SOME POINT… SHE WOULD ASK US ABOUT WHY WE DID WAT WE DID?  OF COURSE SHE ALWAYS HAD SOME WISDOM FROM HER CHILDHOOD OR LIFE LESSONS SHE WITNESSED TO TEACH US A HARD LESSON ABOUT OBEDIENCE… NOT JUST TO OUR PARENTS AND THOSE WHO ARE IN AUTHORITY BUT ALSO GOD!   IF WE LEARN TO OBEY OUR PARENTS WE WILL NOT STRUGGLE TO OBEY GOD WHEN WE CALLS US TO HIMSELF.

I AM HUMBED STILL TO THIS DAY… AS THE HOLY SPIRIT STILL USES THE BOOK TO LEAD ME IN THE WAY OF THE KINGDOM.  I HAVE THOSE MOMENTS… I HAVE TO STOP IN MY TRACKS AND REMEMBER… I HAVE BEEN HERE BEFORE… WHAT DID I DO? WAS IT RIGHT OR WRONG AND WHAT WAS THE OUTCOME?   THOSE MOMENTS ARE VERY HUMBLING FOR I HAVE LEARNED EVERY TIME…. THE FATHER IS GIVING ME A SECOND CHANCE… TO DO IT RIGHT… MAN SAYS YOU CAN CHANGE THE PAST. THAT IS TRUE TO SOME DEGREE.  WE CAN NOT CHANGE WHAT WE DID TO OTHERS…BUT WHEN GOD OPENS A DOOR OF OPPORTUNITY TO CLEAR OUR CONSCIENCE OF A WRONG IN OUR PAST… THAT IS LIKE BEING FREED FROM A PRISON… NO… A DUNGEON WITHOUT LIGHT WITHOUT WINDOWS OR DOORS… ITS THAT DEEP DARK PIT OF HELL ON EARTH THAT CAN NOT BE BROKEN OUT OF.  GOD ALONE IS THE ONLY ONE WHO CAN DESCEND INTO THE DARKNESS AND LIFT US UP OUT OF THE PIT WHERE THE ENEMY OF LIFE DESIRES TO SEE US SUFFER A VERY  SLOW AGONIZING DEATH WHILE HE ENJOYS VIEWING THE REALITY  SHOW.

IF YOU HAVE NOT READ THE BOOK YET I ENCOURAGE YOU TO GO DIVE IN DEEP AND FIND YOURSELF ENGULFED IN A WHOLE NEW REALM OF “RELIGION”   GOD IS NOT A RELIGION… HE IS LIFE!   HE IS SO CLOSE  IT IS LIKE A WOMAN WITH CHILD… SHE FEELS EVERY MOVEMENT WITHIN FROM THE SEED THAT WAS PLANTED IN HER WOMB. SO ALSO GOD PLANTED HIS SEED IN US… THE WORD OF GOD… MADE FLESH.  HE LIVES IN US AND HIS SPIRIT LONGS TO BE SET FREE TO BE PART OF OUR LIFE EVERY DAY NOT JUST ONE HOUR SUNDAY MORNING WHILE THINKING ABOUT WHAT TO  DO AFTER THIS BORING SERVICE!  GOD WISHES FOR US TO GIVE BIRTH AND SET THE HOLY SPIRIT FREE TO DO HIS WORK IN US AND THROUGH US; TO MAKE US WHOLE … SPIRIT, SOUL AND BODY.

LIFE IS NOT FAIR… WE ALL KNOW THAT.   BUT HOW MUCH GREATER WOULD LIFE BE IF WE HAD OUR OWN WALL OF PROTECTION AGAINST ALL THAT IS EVEIL IN THIS WORLD… YOU WILL FIND AFTER BEING RESURRECTED… ALL THINGS ARE GOOD!   I CAN ONLY GIVE YOU A GLIMPSE OF WHAT HE TAUGHT ME BECAUSE HE IS STILL TALKING TO ME EVERY DAY.  AS LONG AS I TAKE THE TIME… MAKE THE TIME AND MAKE HIM PRIORITY… HE NEVER STOPS SPEAKING VOLUMES OF WISDOM AND REVELATION.   I AM EAGER TO WRITE IT ALL DOWN BECAUSE IT IS SO AMAZING…

I GOTTA TELL SOMEBODY WHAT THE LORD HAS DONE!

A LITTLE SECRET… WE ALL HAVE HIDDEN WITH IN US… THE POWER TO MANIPULATE EVIL TO DO GOOD!  ONLY GOD’S SPIRIT CAN TEACH HIS TRUE DISCIPLES (LEARNERS) HOW TO USE THIS PRECIOUS GIFT.  THE KNOWLEDGE OF GOOD AND EVIL.

 

God Factors

when all you really need is a Father who will be there when life is more than you can bear and all you want is to be held like a child again to let go and let your Father take care of you

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As I meander around the garden of my mind I find myself seeking my FATHER’s face. I am not accustomed to seeking Him in the garden but only in the throne room in the midst of Worship, Praise and Thanksgiving or intercession.  But today for some reason I seek His face for advice that I normally go to my Beloved or the Teacher to help me understand.  I suppose I need a Father at this moment, not a lover who is always supporting me and encouraging me nor a Teacher  to answer me with yet another question. I need a Father’s point of view.  Not having that as a child I dive in to the opportunity to know what a father thinks; how he sees his children. As a mother I see my kids different than I do other kids.  I know their weaknesses, strengths, gifts and calling on their life.  Odd how I can see that in my children but not in myself… so I seek my Father’s face.  

Will He be too BUSY?  

I keep walking on in the garden among the many scented flowers listening to the music in my heart.  I find myself lost in the fragrance of the potpourri that permeates my senses.  I close my eyes and just let go of all my thoughts as I walk on not giving a thought to my steps.  I feel a tingling come over me and I quickly open my eyes to find the Father waiting for me on the garden bench under the rose arbor.  My favorite place  in the garden where the roses have a scent not like the ones on earth.  They smell real if that makes any sense to anyone else.  Its like a store bought tomato and a home grown tomato… every one knows the difference. 

Anyway, I smile from ear to ear as I see my FATHER watching me just be free in the garden enjoying … His Rest. I walk over and kiss him on the cheek and whisper I was looking for you.  He smiles and says… I know.  It makes me well up with tears that he knows me… every thought, every emotion, every longing in my soul.  He motions for me to sit beside him and he puts his arm around me so tenderly. He inquires, What is it that you seek to ask me?  I hesitate.  He whispers, I already know so just say it.  Tears slowly trickle down my cheek and he wipes them away with his gentle touch.  I look into his eyes and say… I miss you. 

At that he takes me in his arms and holds me so close to his heart I can feel it beating with mine.  It makes me tremble.  I cry more… because his love for me overwhelms me that I can not stand to be separated from him.  He whispers, “I love to hear you say that.  But why is it you miss me so when I am always near.”  I reply, “It is one thing to know you are near. It is quite another to be engaged in conversing with you.  You are what I long for… to fellowship, to hear you speak to me and tell me what I am created for; what you would have me to do for you.  I need purpose for being Resurrected from the dead, otherwise I remain dead.  I feel like an invisible spirit without a body to inhabit to do some good on the earth. If I have no purpose… then do not make me go back “there” where it is empty, without others hungering for your presence. I have nothing in common with them… with the fleshly bound souls. I do not belong there; I belong here… at home… with you.

The FATHER kisses my forehead and responds with a tear in his eye which moves me to ask his forgiveness.  He takes my face in his hands; turns my face toward his and looks into my soul and speaks life to me.  “I AM delighted you feel this way. You are created for a purpose and a destiny, I wait until you are ready to receive what it is I have for you. I never force you to do anything you are not ready to do willingly.  I desire a willing heart to do my will.  It pleases me when my children ask me how they can help me.  I enjoy allowing them to help me and to show them how the kingdom works.  Any child is welcome to come learn how to work in the kingdom.  The more they learn willingly and succeed the more authority I can give them. But it is a labor of love, forsaking all other loves.   Many start out with good intentions but the demands become more than they are willing to sacrifice for the kingdom and they turn back. It is not that they do not love me but the sacrifice is more than they desire to surrender.  There are few very few who surrender all.” 

I blurt out! “I have nothing of my own.  It all belongs to you.  It’s been bought and paid for… redeemed by my Savior.  Were it not for you sending your Son… I would be still be in hell, the never ending torment and darkness consuming me forever.  Why You chose to save me I will never understand.  I have nothing to offer you, nothing to give you.  I am empty; except now… Your love in me… overflowing and overwhelming me. I am “lovesick”  for a father I never had, never knew until you revealed yourself to me. I do not know why you love me so… But I am so grateful, so thankful that you do.  I want to do something to show my love, my gratitude; my thanks.  I expect no reward.  You are my reward.  I desire nothing but to stay with you all my days; all my life. “

I grab my FATHER and cling to him as my heart aches deep within.  I blubber; “I just love you so much.” 

I feel him gather me up in his arms and he walks as I bury my face in his chest.  I do not want to let go. I do not want to go back… to that place where no one hungers to know my FATHER and his kingdom and his great love.  I can not fathom who would not want to know him and then it hits me… I once was… like them.  I tell my FATHER I am sorry.  He inquires why? I remind him… I once was… like them.  And I forget… because I am no longer that person who did not seek you, love you… know you. He holds me tighter in his arms.  I put my arms around his neck and hold on for dear life. 

He quietly says come sit and I will give you drink from the river.  I look up and see… he has brought me to my favorite place, the place where all my filth was washed away and I was made clean… inside… the place I no longer felt like the scum of the earth.  He brought me a cup of cool water and laid his hand on my head.  He sat with me and just talked…  not about anything spiritual, nothing amazing, inspiring or mystical… just every day talk.  I enjoyed his company and just listening to him talk to me… because he enjoys my company.  not to boss me around or to point out my faults, sins, stupidity and ignorance… just to be what I needed him to be … HUMAN.  

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RESURRECTION…THE UNTOLD STORY

Nothing Compares to the Presence of God

Its finally here!

What a wonderful revelation of God’s mighty hand at work. This is a must read for anyone desiring to know God more. Salvation is so much more than just knowing Jesus saves! It is so much deeper than quoting scripture.  It is more than going to church sunday morning for an hour to pay your dues! God and his Salvation is a way of life!  Its is a life of worship… not singing a song but being the song… the delight of his heart and the praise of his lips! Not for mans acceptance but acceptable to him alone who created us for eden… to walk and talk with him in the garden of delight! It is an honor and privilege to come hear the Spoken Word reveal the secrets, the mysteries, the wisdom hidden in the Written Word.  There is no other like He who gave his life for us… to show us the way… to crucify our fleshly desires, fleshly thinking, behaving, seeing, hearing, speaking and feeling.  How we can be delivered from all these burdens and set free from the chaos, the war from within and the temptation to sin!  I have nothing but goodness and thanks to God for the freedom he taught me from revealing himself to me.  It is understanding the Truth that sets us free! Not just knowing what the Truth is.

This is a powerful witness to God’s enduring patience with mankind and our ignorance of his Divinity, Holiness and Authority!  And still He Whispers to our hearts, reaches out to us in the midst of the darkness… but fear keeps us from reaching out to Him!

He is good… He can only do good.   Anything else is of the darkness.  Believe and He will reveal His Truth of all that He is in us and through us as we were created for Him… to fellowship, to commune and to walk with Him in heaven and earth… above the natural realm of the physical and into the spirit… the unseen… hidden within what is seen! Take time… make time to dive into the mind of God and the heart of God… the Why? He does what He does and works in ways we do not comprehend.

Enjoy and delight in the Truth, be Resurrected and Raptured into the Kingdom of Heaven and never be the same again!

CREATED FOR EDEN

We are Created For His Delight and His Joy… How much more should we delight and enjoy him with our life…

20170616_182334I AM SO DELIGHTED TO FINALLY OPEN CREATED FOR EDEN.  THE LORD IS BLESSING ME BEYOND MY HOPES AND DREAMS.  HE IS DOING ALL THE WORK HEDGING ME IN SO THE ENEMY CANNOT INTERFERE.   THE HOLY SPIRIT IS POURING OUT THAT DOUBLE ANOINTING TO KEEP ME GOING, PROGRESSING DEEPER INTO THE UNKNOWN.  I LOVE WHEN HE TAKES OVER AND DOES ALL THE WORK.

AS MY DREAMS COME TRUE … ALL I DESIRE TO DO IS BLESS OTHERS.  HE IS SO GOOD, SO FAITHFUL.  AND STILL THROUGH IT ALL… I STILL CRY OUT ALL I WANT IS MORE OF YOU… TO WORSHIP YOU WITH MY LIFE. 

I ONLY DESIRE TO DRAW CLOSER TO HIM AND TO KNOW HIM MORE. THE MORE I SEE HIM WORKING IN ME AND THROUGH ME THE MORE I WANT TO STEP OUT INTO THE UNKNOWN AND DISCOVER HOW GREAT HE IS.  I WANT TO SEE ALL THE WONDERS OF WHAT HE CAN DO…  DESPITE MY INABILITES.  THE MORE I LET GO THE MORE HE TAKES OVER.  I AM HUMBLED BY HIS GOODNESS AND HIS GLORY.

I KNOW I AM BLESSED EXCEEDINGLY ABUNDANTLY WHEN PEOPLE STOP IN BEFORE I AM EVEN OPEN FOR BUSINESS.  HE IS DRAWING THE MASSES TO HIS BUSINESS… KINGDOM BUSINESS.  HOW GREAT IS HE THAT HE DRAWS ALL PEOPLE TO HIMSELF… SO I WANT TO BE WHERE HE IS AND THEN I WILL ENJOY ALL THAT COMES HIS WAY.  I AM BLESSED BY ASSOCIATION JUST AS ONE CAN BE GUILTY BY ASSOCIATION. I CHOOSE TO BE ASSOCIATED WITH THE BLESSING RATHER THAN THE CURSED.

HE HAS TURNED ALL THE DAYS OF DARKNESS TO LIGHT.  MY PAST IS NO LONGER A STUMBLING BLOCK AND I AM FREE TO BE ALL HE CREATED ME TO BE.  THE ONLY THING HE ASKS OF ME IS TO TRUST HIM.

WHAT MAN INTERPRETS FROM THE WORD IS NOT ALWAYS IN LINE WITH GOD’S SPOKEN WORD.  I AM LIVING EVIDENCE OF THE SPOKEN WORD.  THE WRITTEN WORD IS BEAUTIFUL AND PERFECT, ALWAYS GOOD WHEN INTERPRETED BY THE SPIRIT AND NOT THE FLESH.

SO I WILL CHOOSE TO LEAVE THE INTERPRETATIONS TO THE HOLY SPIRIT.  HE CAN REVEAL THE TRUTH TO ME FOR EACH AND EVERY SITUATION THAT I ENCOUNTER.  I HAVE FOUND WHAT HE TELLS OTHERS TO DO OR NOT DO… HE TELLS ME SOMETHING DIFFERENT JUST TO TEST MY OBEDIENCE.  THIS ONCE WAS A WAR WITHIN ME AS I STOOD MY GROUND AND FOUGHT THE SPOKEN WORD WITH THE WRITTEN WORD.  AS THOUGH I COULD WIN… I FOUND MYSELF IN JACOBS SITUATION WRESTLING WITH THE GOD!  NEEDLESS TO SAY I DID NOT COME OUT THE VICTOR NOR UNSCATHED!   THIS WAR WAS WELL WORTH THE DISCIPLINE.  A LESSON I WILL TREASURE; DEAREST TO MY HEART!

SO MY SURRENDER PRODUCED A WORLD OF SPIRITUAL GOOD IN MY NATURAL WORLD.  THOSE UNSEEN BATTLES BECAME THE VERY STEPPING STONES TO GET ME WHERE I WANTED TO BE… CLOSER TO GOD.   I WANT TO KNOW HIM FOR WHO HE IS.  ALL THAT HE IS.  THIS BUSINESS IS NOT MY OWN.  IT IS HIM DESIRING TO USE MY “TALENTS”  HE HAS GIVING ME.  HE HAS GIVEN ME MANY… MORE THAN 5!   I WANT TO BE A GOOD STEWARD OF THEM ALL AND PRODUCE A TRIPLE HARVEST NOT JUST A DOUBLE ONE.

I ONCE BURIED ALL MY “TALENTS”  MY EARTHLY “father” AND EARTHLY “husband”  REJECTED ALL MY TALENTS.  THEY FORCED ME TO BE SOMETHING I WAS NOT CREATED TO BE AND IT KILLED ME.  DYING A LITTLE MORE EACH DAY I COULD NOT BE WHO “I AM”.  CREATED IN GOD’S IMAGE. I AM MADE TO CREATE BEAUTY ALL AROUND ME.  I HAVE THE TALENTS TO RECYCLE AND REUSE OR REPURPOSE THINGS THAT OTHERS THROW AWAY.  REVEALS A SPIRITUAL TEACHING HERE AND THERE AS MAN THROWS AWAY THE VERY THINGS GOD DESIRES TO USE FOR HIS GLORY.

SO ALSO WHEN MAN THREW ME OUT GOD FOUND ME AND RECYCLED ME THE SAME WAY.  “I AM” A NEW CREATION!   ONCE SHATTERED AND PULVERIZED TO DUST, GOD CAME ALONG SPIT ON THE DUST AND MADE ME BETTER! HE CREATED ME TO PLEASE HIM… TO WORSHIP HIM WITH THE NEW LIFE HE GAVE ME.  NOT ONLY BREATHING LIFE INTO ME BUT LIKE A WONDERFUL AMAZING COMPUTER PROGRAMMER HE PUT ONLY GOOD INFORMATION INTO MY MIND AND HEART… AND HIS HARD DRIVE NEVER  CRASHES. HE HAS BECOME MY EPPICENTER.  ALL THINGS REVOLVE AROUND HIM.

I AM AMAZED HOW HE HAS POSSESSED ME FOR HIMSELF…  I WILLINGLY SURRENDER… GIVING MYSELF TO HIM COMPLETELY.  I ONCE GAVE MSELF TO  MAN AND THEY DESTROYED ME AND THREW ME AWAY. ONE WOULD THINK I WOULD BE FEARFUL TO GIVEMYSELF AWAY AGAIN… BUT THAT IS THE GLORY OF BEING REPROGRAMED BY THE MASTER!   ALL THINGS ARE GOOD IN HIS HANDS. I SEE WHAT HE SEES. I HEAR WHAT HE SAYS. I HAVE HIS THOUGHTS PROGRAMMED INTO MY MEMORY BANK AND I CAN ONLY SPEAK WHAT HE HAS “INPUT” INTO MY MOUTH.  MY HEART IS FULL OF HIM… SO ALL THAT COMES OUT IS PERFECTED LOVE.  HE DIRECTS MY HANDS TO DO HIS WILL AND MY FEET TO TAKE HIM WHERE HE WANTS TO GO.  I OFFER NO RESISTANCE… RATHER I ENJOY THE WALK WITH HIM AS HE TALKS TO ME AND IMPUTS MORE OF HIS AMZING GRACE IN ME.

THIS KINGDOM BUSINESS IS AN OPEN DOOR TO REVEAL HIMSELF TO THE MASSES… TO LEAVE NO STONE UNTURNED.   WHAT JOY WHAT BLESSINGS COME TO THOSE WHO OBEY THE VOICE OF GOD.  HAD I NOT TAKEN THAT FIRST STEP OUT OF SLAVERY AND BONDAGE I WOULD STILL BE LIVING IN “EGYPT”… OR DEAD…  FOREVER LOST IN THE DARKNESS AND TORMENT OF ETERNAL HELL!

I GIVE ALL THE GLORY TO GOD…  HE ALONE IS WORTHY OF ALL MY PRAISES.  HE ALONE IS WORTHY OF ALL MY WORSHP. HE ALONE IS WORTHY OF MY LIFE, MY TIME, MY TALENTS.  SO HE GETS PRIORITY… OVER EVERYTHING IN THIS WORLD, EVERYTHING IN ME BELONGS TO HIM.  AFTERALL HE BOUGHT AND PAID FOR THE HEAP OF TRASH I ONCE WAS… CREATED BY MAN.   GOD TOOK IT; RECYCLED IT MADE IT BEAUTIFUL THAT NO ONE RECOGNIZES WHO I AM.

PERFECTED BY HIS HOLINESS AND RIGHTEOUSNESS; SHINING LIKE A ROYAL DIADEM  IN HIS CROWN. I RADIATE HIS LIGHT AND LOVE EVERYWHERE HE TAKES ME.  I AM OVERJOYED THAT HE DESIRES TO USE ME… TO REVEAL HIMSELF TO THOSE ON THE EARTH WHO CAN NOT SEE HE DWELLS AMONG US… HE DESIRES TO DWELL IN US AND THROUGH US.  HE IS MY GOD… THE JOY OF MY LIFE, THE DELIGHT OF MY HEART.

RESURRECTION…THE UNTOLD STORY

Nothing Compares to the Presence of God

Its finally here!

What a wonderful revelation of God’s mighty hand at work. This is a must read for anyone desiring to know God more. Salvation is so much more than just knowing Jesus saves! It is so much deeper than quoting scripture.  It is more than going to church sunday morning for an hour to pay your dues! God and his Salvation is a way of life!  Its is a life of worship… not singing a song but being the song… the delight of his heart and the praise of his lips! Not for mans acceptance but acceptable to him alone who created us for eden… to walk and talk with him in the garden of delight! It is an honor and privilege to come hear the Spoken Word reveal the secrets, the mysteries, the wisdom hidden in the Written Word.  There is no other like He who gave his life for us… to show us the way… to crucify our fleshly desires, fleshly thinking, behaving, seeing, hearing, speaking and feeling.  How we can be delivered from all these burdens and set free from the chaos, the war from within and the temptation to sin!  I have nothing but goodness and thanks to God for the freedom he taught me from revealing himself to me.  It is understanding the Truth that sets us free! Not just knowing what the Truth is.

This is a powerful witness to God’s enduring patience with mankind and our ignorance of his Divinity, Holiness and Authority!  And still He Whispers to our hearts, reaches out to us in the midst of the darkness… but fear keeps us from reaching out to Him!

He is good… He can only do good.   Anything else is of the darkness.  Believe and He will reveal His Truth of all that He is in us and through us as we were created for Him… to fellowship, to commune and to walk with Him in heaven and earth… above the natural realm of the physical and into the spirit… the unseen… hidden within what is seen! Take time… make time to dive into the mind of God and the heart of God… the Why? He does what He does and works in ways we do not comprehend.

Enjoy and delight in the Truth, be Resurrected and Raptured into the Kingdom of Heaven and never be the same again!

Here I Am

Here I Am

My journey out into the unknown has proven to be a journey into the presence of my God and all his wonders and goodness stored up for me. Who could imagine… following the Spirit… not knowing where He is leading would take me up the backside of the Mountain of God. A path not well traveled… overgrown from lack of use. 

It is here I found just how determined I am to be nearer to my God.  I was not good enough for man… I was not accepted nor allowed to enter in to learn the way of righteousness.  I was given the bare necessities to say…I’m a “christian”.   No victory over sin, under oppression of evil everyday of my so called life that was no life but a daily death to me.

It was the stranger who pulled me aside in secret and showed me a secret pathway to the top of the Mountian.  Man is not aware of this path, it  is a hidden doorway veiled from man’s eyes. Only the Spirit can reveal its opening.

He saw my… hunger and determination as man kept stopping me from ascending the Mounian of God. The more they tried to stop me the more determined I became to find my way up … by night if necessary to steal away in the midnight hours when man is sleeping and not keeping watch.

They always caught me in the daylight and forced me back down the Mountain. My resistance made them more determined to keep me from even entering the garden.   They put guards at every gate so I could not even enjoy sitting in the garden.

The Spirit, dressed in human form was an older man who appeared to me out of no where. He only put his finger to his lips to say shshsh and motioned me to follow him.  In ignorance I followed without thinking any evil of him.

Once in the garden he whispered,  There is a way to the top of the mountain if you really want to ascend to worship God.    I confessed they will not allow me to go up… I am a woman and unclean.

Smiling, he  replys, they don’t know the way that is why they do not want you to go up.  They can not find their way so they hinder anyone from going up where they cannot go.   They do not want to take the chance of someone finding out they are ignorant of the way.  They become a laughing stock to the world.  There is a secret path they know not of… the backside of the mountain out of view from the public eye.   What they do is for men to see so they can boast.   This is why they cannot find they way.

As I agreed to follow him he began walking stealthily upward. I was eager to follow even though it was rocky and steep.   The thick brush and fallen trees hindered my ability to keep up. Avoiding tree branches, thornbushes and large boulders I kept following.   It was only when I slipped on loose rocks I almost fell backward down the Mountain.   I do not know how but the man had grabbed me and kept me from falling.  My eyes caught his… the look in his eyes made me to know he would not leave me behind.

This man, a stranger, was so kind and gracious, unlike those men guarding the Mountain. He saw my weakness…exhausted from the hardship. He helped me to a clearing and made me to sit under a tree on a large flat rock.  He gave me a drink from where he got the water I do not know.  I gulped it down.

He spoke kindly to me while I rested. He encouraged me to endure for it would be well worth the hardship.  He rose from the rock, reached for my hand, looking into his eyes I reached for him and he pulled me to my feet. I felt his strength and it empowered me to go on.  We climbed upward still higher.  The air thinner the vegetation sparse and not as difficult. I could feel the difference within me.   He suddenly stopped and turned to me.  I looked up from the path and waited for him to speak.   He only said, from here on you can go on your own. No one will stop you.  The way is clear and plain to see. Go, do what you came to do.  Do what your heart desires, stay as long as you want.  No one will interfere, no one will stop you or hurt you from here on.

I thanked the man and asked how I could repay him for his kindness.  He replied, you already have repaid me by allowing me to lead you to God.   I began to climb upward toward the top top feeling the anticipation of being free to ascend and worship God with all my heart soul and body.

At last, I stand victorious on the top of the Mountain.  I begin to worship, being thankful for the man God sent to help me find the way, to the place I long to be…here in your presence, unhindered, unbothered by the world… to pour out my heart, my love and my gratitude… for calling me up to Yourself.

You reveal Yourself to me and I am changed… how can I ever go back? How can I ever descend again into the valley below… its not where I belong,  I belong here with You.  My desire is to be with you forever and forever. I give my life to You…have Your way… Do Your Will.

Possess me completely to walk upon the earth… to see, to hear, to speak, to know and feel, to do whatever You desire to do… to reveal Yourself, Your Presence to whom so ever will hear Your voice and heed Your Word. I give myself to you… use me as long as You desire. I only ask that You allow me to watch and learn from You so I can be like You.

Here I am… You called, I came.  I am at Your beckoning call. Ask anything and I will say Yes.  Even when I have no idea what I am doing… I say Yes to You… because I now know it is not I but You in me doing the work. You only ask to use this body of mine that You created for Your Glory, Honor and Praise… to revealed Yourself on the earth. I say yes… because You revealed Yourself to me… and I desire all to know You as I do.