The Writing on the Wall

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I don’t understand … hu-mans!   How is it that one side always wants freedom of speech but forbids the other side their freedom of speech!  What happened to tolerating both sides- their own views, opinions, likes and dislikes. We have a whole generation that has risen up in defiance of the very thing they are taking advantage of… freedom of expression … LIFE… Liberty and the Pursuit of Happiness!  One side forbids the other their freedoms while they run rampant… to the extremes! I might add… it does not matter the subject from nationality to religion and everything in between….the extremist to the right or the left… what does that do to a nation? a community? a family?  Divided we fall… united we stand.  The very ones demanding the freedom of expressing their own “person”  is the very same hu-mans trying to take away the freedom of those they do not agree with.  UGH!  What is wrong with HU-MANS!  We pride our-SELF on being “TOLERANT” but what does that really mean?  I have seen the cruelty that comes with being undisciplined and unlearned.  I am not saying we are un-educated.  God knows we are so OVER-EDUCATED WE ARE BECOMING STUPID IN THE COMMON SENSE SORT OF WAY.  WE HAVE BECOME SO DEPENDANT ON COMPUTERS WE HAVE FORGOTTEN HOW TO THINK… AS IN REASON THINGS OUT… THE OUTCOME OF WORDS, DEEDS AND FEELINGS. SO MANY I SEE RE-ACT  INSTEAD OF LEARN TO ACT… INTELLIGENTLY! SO WHO DETERMINES INTELLIGENCE… GOVERNMENT?… THEY CANT EVEN GET ALONG WITH EACH OTHER …AND THEY MAKE LAWS THAT SAY WE HAVE TO TOLERATE ONE ANOTHERS DIFFERENCES.  What example they are to follow!  How many times have we corrected our children… not to fight with other children… to play NICE!  What do they see on TV?  Adults fighting over things that are so selfish!  We cant care for our own… and now we want to take care of everybody else?  We want to tell them what to do, how to do it and play by “our” rules when we don’t even follow our own rules… LAWS!   We make more laws than we keep. We cause more confusion than we clarify.   How can we keep the peace when their is no peace among us.  “A” is forced to accept “B” but then “B” don’t have to accept “A”. What are we?  Infidels?  Uncivilized, undomesticated brutes that cant even make room for all our different personalities, characteristics, gifts, abilities, likes and dislikes.  We all have an opinion but not all have the need to voice that opinion.  Like me.. I shake my head in disbelief… aghast… that it would be considered a crime to help the poor and the homeless.  A crime to interfere with child abuse. A crime to be able to do what I want with my own property.  A crime to stand up for… good.  Who gets to decide what is good and bad?   I don’t know about all you out there… in the dark… in the midst of the storm… between good and evil… but I say,  I tremble at the thought of being accountable for every thing I have done in this life!  I thought we were born with common sense… I was wrong.  One hu-mans good is another hu-mans evil. One likes it hot another likes it cold… whose right?  This is the foolishness going on in our government, our education, our businesses and even our families.  I can hardly stand the INTOLERANCE!   What Government calls good is bringing this world to an end!  Look at history… its being re-written!  How is that allowed!   Makes me wonder… ponder… imagine… how will they twist my story?   We all have a story.  Why is it allowed to be twisted… to deceive. I never imagined the country I live in… Called – Freedom for all! would one day pervert those freedoms to enslave the masses… it is clear.. we are reaping what we sowed!  All the Laws we fought against… GOVERNMENT overstepping its boundries… controlling everything WE do and say.  Yes… Boundries are good… for everyone!   To protect everyone! But when it protects those who break the Laws and imprisons those who keep the Laws… I gander to say… there will be consequences to those actions.

I have a piece of advice… take care of your own house… clean your own house and keep your own garden… weed-free- before to go to and fro in the earth trying to tell everyone else what is wrong with their “house and garden”.  You know what I mean… MIND YOUR OWN BUSY-NESS.  Work on what is wrong in your own mind… heart… and if I must be blunt… your own Body.  Stop … trying to pick the speck out of everyone else’s eyes… meanwhile you have a beam in your own eye. Stop all the name calling… its infantile and foolish… be sure your words will come back to haunt you… if not kick you in your own backside!…

 

 

 

 

RESURRECTION…THE UNTOLD STORY

Nothing Compares to the Presence of God

Its finally here!

What a wonderful revelation of God’s mighty hand at work. This is a must read for anyone desiring to know God more. Salvation is so much more than just knowing Jesus saves! It is so much deeper than quoting scripture.  It is more than going to church sunday morning for an hour to pay your dues! God and his Salvation is a way of life!  Its is a life of worship… not singing a song but being the song… the delight of his heart and the praise of his lips! Not for mans acceptance but acceptable to him alone who created us for eden… to walk and talk with him in the garden of delight! It is an honor and privilege to come hear the Spoken Word reveal the secrets, the mysteries, the wisdom hidden in the Written Word.  There is no other like He who gave his life for us… to show us the way… to crucify our fleshly desires, fleshly thinking, behaving, seeing, hearing, speaking and feeling.  How we can be delivered from all these burdens and set free from the chaos, the war from within and the temptation to sin!  I have nothing but goodness and thanks to God for the freedom he taught me from revealing himself to me.  It is understanding the Truth that sets us free! Not just knowing what the Truth is.

This is a powerful witness to God’s enduring patience with mankind and our ignorance of his Divinity, Holiness and Authority!  And still He Whispers to our hearts, reaches out to us in the midst of the darkness… but fear keeps us from reaching out to Him!

He is good… He can only do good.   Anything else is of the darkness.  Believe and He will reveal His Truth of all that He is in us and through us as we were created for Him… to fellowship, to commune and to walk with Him in heaven and earth… above the natural realm of the physical and into the spirit… the unseen… hidden within what is seen! Take time… make time to dive into the mind of God and the heart of God… the Why? He does what He does and works in ways we do not comprehend.

Enjoy and delight in the Truth, be Resurrected and Raptured into the Kingdom of Heaven and never be the same again!

Cutting the Cord

There comes a time to just cut the cord and let it all go!

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Its been some time since I have been connected to the W.W.W.

I decided to cut the cord from the addiction to KNOWING everything that’s going on in the world around me. I found a freedom in being DISCONNECTED from all the drama going on in LIFE.  It’s not that I do not care but that I will not allow it to rule me or plant fear and worry in my soul.  It is written guard the heart for it is the well spring of life.  So … I set out to guard the very thing that keeps me at peace.

You may wonder what did I do with all my spare time?  I discovered more about my soul than I ever knew existed.  As I spent time pondering… literally thinking on purpose with a purpose. I have learned to take thoughts captive and cast them out and other thoughts I had to take the time…. make the time and decide are they really good or evil.  I found that some are neither.  In the midst of all my “Pondering” I found my self writing. What did I write?  My conversations with GOD.  I asked him questions!   It sounds crazy right?   But it is not crazy to expect God to answer our questions. He just does not always answer us the way we expect. For me… He tends to answer my question by asking me a question. In the midst of my answering His question I find I answered my own question.

If there is one thing I have learned “not” being connected to the world and all it’s “information”… I find life more manageable and relationships more valuable.  I have time for those important things that the cord has kept me from.  I discover I like the slow pace of sitting in the garden before the sunrises and just waiting… Being still.   It’s like being on vacation every day.  If possible I set time aside every morning and every evening to be still and just wait for the sun to rise or set.   I allow the beautiful colors to be painted in my memory- by hand – stroke by stroke.  As I watch the colors change, coming and going… I find a peace and yet a sorrow… the day has passed and the night comes when all the vibrant colors of the rainbow fade away. The joy comes in knowing I am blessed to see another day as the sun rises again and its radiant glory reminds me, God Loves Me so!  Why am I so fortunate to be able to gaze upon such beauty?  He gave me the eyes to see… to behold such things to wonderful for me to grasp.

Living the cordless life is something I will chose to maintain. I have recently given my soul permission to use the cord to write my experiences not just being freed from the addiction to the cord or more rightly the W.W.W.  but the real life hidden, overlooked and crying out to be noticed.

It is strange, I noticed my wisdom has increased as I sit STILL pondering.  I always keep my journal close by in hopes some revelation will come… and it does… I admit every day I have more than one revelation to journal.  Let me add  most of these come through talking to God.  Writing my words and His words… I see with my eyes and somehow the light shines brighter and that AHHA! moment happens.   Of course I can’t keep it to myself.

This is what I write… not just in my journal but to those who are in that vicious cycle… that downward spiral out of control… the answer to stopping the chaos is simple… PULL THE PLUG!

It sounds painful but the reward is worth more than money can buy, more than any pill can help and so much healthier than any DI-ET.  I have become more patient, more peaceful, more understanding, less offended, and less re-active in learning to just stop nosing in everyone else’s busy-ness. Why do I need to know what everyone in the world ate for breakfast, lunch or dinner or what snack they ate and now they hate themselves for being a glutton!  Yeah… you heard me right… gluttony is a word no one wants to hear!

My question is … why are we allowing someone else tell us what is right and wrong to eat.  Why not listen to your own body!   I guess if you are never still long enough or quiet enough to hear your CONSCIENCE speaking the truth… Yes you heard me right… Your conscience not someone else’s conscience. Not some science project that man invented to make money off your ignorance.  Yes you heard me say it… ignorance!  That means YOU DONT KNOW!  STUPIDITY is a choice.  God gave you a brain and if that is not working right it may need rewired. NOT BY MAN!  God gave us an instruction manual how to live here in this realm where our own ignorance makes us vulnerable to deception.

I have spent many days being still… reading that instruction manual front to back and even sideways and upside down… don’t ask me how… I gained insight into truth and I will spend the rest of my life sharing these insights with whomever will listen… or read them.

There is not a day that passes that I do  not spend hours  sometimes whole days engrossed in the Words God speaks… not just to me but to anyone… whomsoever will …listen.   He does not yell it out loud, He WHISPERS like the wind brushing against the willow trees. He has a sense of humor it’s hard to believe.  But when he shows me things through his eyes I have to laugh… though most times …I cry.  If Mankind only knew the truth  we would all fall down on our faces …IN AWE and WONDER!

I have learned much… the most valuable gift… to rewire the brain from thinking like a human and think the way God thinks. When you see the way God truly is… you know its all good… I mean everything… even when it hurts. Because in the midst of the pain the sorrow the things we call evil… Because after all, humans are evil… look around! What do humans do?  Everyone is out to get what SELF wants and will do anything to anyone to get it… even if it hurts someone else physically, mentally, emotionally or spiritually.   We cant even agree God is good! How will we ever get along with one another? We blame God for all the ills of the world. Let me say… In His GOODNESS  He gave you free will.  Yes free will to choose to BE GOOD or BE Evil.  HUMMM… that’s hard to swallow.  So now we blame God for giving us free will?   So if God is evil then Who can Be Good? Do you believe there is a devil? Satan they call him… you may have some other name for him.  He is the Accuser, the Slanderer. So can I ask the question… Who do You Accuse? Who do you slander? So… are you Being GOOD like God?  whom you call evil. OR… like the devil, satan?  Looks like the evidence is clear.

Word of advice… CUT THE CORD!   You can not fill your mind with chaos and expect to have peace.  You can not fill your heart with evil and BE GOOD!  Every tree produces fruit and that fruit has a seed in it… plant that seed and guess what… you get the same thing as the fruit that carried the seed. So good can not produce evil and evil can not produce good.  Every seed produces like fruit. Let me know when you plant corn and get a pumpkin or when you plant tomatoes and it produces and apple!   NO GMO foods… Fake food deceives your eye but not your body!  So also with things that appear good but the result is evil.

I will say it One More Time  Cut The Cord!  We think… and that can be the root of the problem right there.  Our Thinking!  Always trying to get out of  work! So we manufacture THINGS and those things begin to become our Master! We begin to bow the knee to things… instead of being the Master over those things… to be used to help instead of hinder LIFE!  We are created to DO…not to be lazy.  Being still and Being lazy are opposite extremes! as far as the east is from the west.  Being still we clean out the clutter within the soul.  Being lazy… we do nothing and expect to be paid for doing nothing… and wanting everyone else to do for us  and do it for free!   I think they call that socialism!   That’s a can of worms I’d rather not open!

Home Again

when the way is to long and hard there is a place of rest for the weary soul… it only takes One Step of Faith to cross over to the other side.

After  a very long journey to a far away land I am finally back to writing.  Being away for so long made me realize a very important secret… about myself.  I am who I am… no one and no thing can change that. I am a writer since my school days  my childhood journals still send shiver through me as I have documented all the sorrows hurts wounds of family and friends. 

This is me… As the saying goes you can take the girl out of the country but you cant take the country out of the girl. Well… so also… You can take the pen away from the writer but the true writer is always writing in the soul. 

I have spent many nights awake looking for a way … how to get back to writing… as the world steals away the time with long hard labor and the demands that wear out the physical body… the soul seems to still be able to create a story even while one sleeps.  That story is so real that upon waking it is as though the writer has lived it out in another realm.  Some people call them dreams, but to the true writer it is all reality.  We who are inspired to write , write for the shear joy and delight of creating a world where we can choose the outcome, the characters, and the scenery. Time and space have no power to stop the true writer. We live the dream, we are the dream.

I admit I have had moments… moments I cried myself to sleep the feeling like I was being suffocated by the worlds demands.  They tell me I do not have a choice.  I have to live in the world, by the worlds system and their rules.  So… I do the unthinkable… I rebel.  I leave it all behind… I am homeless, jobless and wondering where the money will come from to live.   I spend the next few months trying to figure it al out.  This wilderness experience has taught me many things.  How the world has put the people in bondage to electronics.  we have become robots tools the world uses to do their dirty work.  they live the life of luxury while we… slaves of an ignorant sort believe the lie… we are free…  But are we free?   

As I experience the freedom… for a while… I find it so peaceful so restful.  I recommend it for everyone.  I am not saying everyone can do what I did.  I can only speak for myself.  I took myself out of the rat race… I sold what I could, put the rest in storage.  I stopped spending money… I put it back in a HOPE BOX.  Putting my faith out there into the unknown!  I chose to break the chains of the world and sever the connections that kept me bound to all the chaos. I call it SABBATH. 

Can I invite everyone into this realm I have found?  Its a wilderness at first.  It feels like … everything is stripped away… a nakedness that at first leaves me feeling like I am hanging in the nothingness, But it did not take long to realize what thought was covering me was me just being accustomed to the heavy burdens the world puts on everyone of us. The constant running to and fro.  It had to STOP! 

I challenge each and everyone to make ONE small step. Take ONE day… set it apart from all the other days… No Compromising…and turn it “all” OFF!  One day is all it takes. It’s like giving yourself a vacation ONE DAY a week!  One day… you allow yourself to do NOTHING but BE STILL… Time to think or NOT! Time to take every negative thought captive and cast it out. Time to choose what you will think about with purpose. Not allowing anyone to tell you what to think how to think or speak negative words into your soul. ONE day… to only think about what is good, right, beautiful, lovely, pure, and delightful… what God created for us to enjoy… LIFE!

The first time I did this I thought it impossible to not think about negative things that go on day to day. But It did not take me but a few hours to realize just how much we process as negative.  It takes practice, practice, practice to unlearn the negative.  I have set myself with determination… to not allow anyone or any situation to invite themselves into my soul! 

You wonder how is this possible?  Prespective… what we believe as truth sets us up for good or evil. Who determines what is good and evil?  We learn from our parents family friends community society from those we accept as having authority or wisdom above our own!   Who makes us believe the lie we have to have it all?  Who makes us believe we have to wear certain clothing or possess things to be accepted?  Who tells us what is normal?   Ask anyone… We all think we are normal and everyone else is abnormal. 

How exhausting it is to always be valuing ourselves by someone else’s standards of right and wrong… AND THEN… There’s GOD!  I hated RELIGION!   I hated the hypocrisy and the double standards. I hated the worthlessness … of trying to please everyone so no one would be …OFFENDED!   I discovered the TRUTH. It only matters what God says… not what man says is right or wrong.  Man can twist the simplest WORD and make it evil… The WORD… LOVE.

I was taught God hated me. All because I was BAD!  Who constitutes what is BAD?  Had I known… I would not be the one writing… HIS-STORY.  He Loves me… Because He Created me …PERFECT!   The problem arises when humans take what God created perfect and they try to perfect what is already perfect.  Parents, family, gov’t, society, education all indoctrinating the “innocent” child from PRE-SCHOOL age until death. 

It is only when I walkedaway from it all that I found… WHO I AM… I am God’s delight!  He wants to help FIX what HUMANS broke.  They think they are doing God a service!  They instead… “manufacture”… a false belief that we must depend on HUMANS above GOD! Silly humans… They got it all wrong!

I found a new LIFESTYLE… It is quite like heaven on Earth.  As long as I keep my garden free of weeds, thorns, thistles and the VARMITS that do harm to my garden, I enjoy the garden of my soul. My MIND and HEART  are set apart as Holy Places.  Not just anyone is allowed in my garden.  It is only by INVITATION!  

It is there I set apart time every morning and evening to spend time with GOD.  It’s that face to face time not a quick hey dude or a text saying… luv u.   No… I make time for the things I value and RESPECT.  I MAKE the time to show LOVE to the ONE who is LOVE. Where my heart is that is what I treasure most. What I put my time and focus on the most… that becomes my “god”. 

We have an uncanny ways of keeping GOD out of our “house”  we want him to just send a check and give us everything we want… but never  long to spend time with HIM … ALONE. Are we afraid?  If He shows up will He find a house of chaos or peace?  Will He find a garden neglected and overgrown… fruitless by His standards.    Do we want Hi telling us what to do? Do we want Him telling us what is right and wrong?   Do we want him choosing our friends… lover(S)?  Do we give him Sovereignty and Authority over us?  

The ultimate question of the Day is this… Will we give him our FREE WILL to choose?

This is the ultimate sacrifice God cherishes… Do we trust Him so much that we will allow Him to choose what is best for us!

You will never know the TRUTH unless you take that first step… into the unknown… that leap of faith… you don’t know what’s on the other side… you just choose… to take His hand and let Him lead the way… One Step at a time… One Day at a time. 

Until… You ARRIVE

It’s wonderful  over here… come join me on the OTHER SIDE

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Creating Heaven on Earth

When creating our own Garden of Eden here on earth remember… God has to be the center of it all.

decoupageWe may dream about what it may be like to be God.   It may only last a moment… when we realize how small we really are.  Those moments when we don’t have all the answers.  Moments when we are at a loss for words; when we don’t know which way to turn or who to trust.

When we live each day trying to create our own little piece of paradise and suddenly …. the world and all its chaos comes in like a tidal wave and wipes out our finite kingdom.

We struggle to rebuild, restore and regain some sense of balance.  The frustration of things  lost that can never be found… recreated or relived.  We all strive to create Eden, a place all our own… where we rule and reign.  We say what is right and wrong. We choose what is fair and just… little do we realize we can not judge rightly. We do not know the future. We have no inkling of the very things we think are good are hurting another soul.  The very things we enjoy are infecting… impacting the world around us.

20151007_175431.jpgEden is different for all of us.  Some believe it is eating whatever we want and never gaining a pound. Some believe it is having anything we want, any time without consequences. Some believe they should be allowed to do what they want… when they want and never fear retribution. You can ask any wealthy person… money does not buy happiness.  It may be a temporary high but in the end… no one ever lay dying regretting they were “not” rich. Most regret not taking care of their body, not taking the time for family and friends. Some regret not enjoying life… the simple things, some even regret never knowing if there is a “GOD”.  Is there life after death?

As we strive to build our kingdom, we pursue with all diligence the fastest way to eat drink and enjoy the good life.  We do not realize it is the journey that we make… that is the joy.  What have we observed, learned, things we experienced ? What or Who have we impacted for good… a life?  Creation? God?

Have you ever thought about how your life impacts God?   Do we bring Him pleasure, joy or delight? Do we grieve Him, is He always reading between the lines, always working on the sidelines to keep us out of the line of fire?  Is he always running interference for us… because of us?

20160617_182019.jpgWe humans… are selfish!   We think only of our own satisfaction, our own desires, our own greed.   We grumble and complain over things we do not see as good.  The secret is easy… Knowing all things are good… even when we do not understand.  Man calls it looking for the silver lining… what he does not realize… that silver lining is redemption… redeeming what we think is evil… down the road we find that very “evil” thing is a blessing in disguise.

I can say this only for myself…After many trials, many situations, circumstances beyond my control… Because God in His infinite Love gave humans….FREE-WILL!  WHAT WE DO IMPACTS THE WHOLE WORLD.

And still… All I see…

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We do not realize our Garden of Eden is only a delight when God is allowed to build it.  I do not mean the natural building… though he has created such a beautiful world… man in his FREE WILL has twisted and corrupted everything that is pure and holy.  Look around… what has man created “good” that he could out perform God’s perfect plan and provision?

Man’s world… his idea kingdom has brought death, pain, suffering,  evil, selfishness, greed, wickedness to its deepest, darkest moment.  And still… WE ARE PROUD!   We have kicked God out!  We choose HUMANS to rule and reign over us… over our garden!  Why?

Man bent on out performing God… to prove… we do not need God!   HA!  Man has no idea he exists… because God exists!

And still… all is see…

GOD IS GOOD!

God in all His infinite wisdom allows man to exert himself to his very last breath… to prove Man is nothing without God… He is a vapor of breath… when that last breath is gone… what becomes of mans soul?

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HE WILL REMEMBER HIS PROMISE

God does not have to declare war on man… Man has become his own worst enemy… He will… destroy himself.  It is inevitable… because of pride.  Anyone who is wise knows when pride overtakes a man… he will fall.   Knowledge Puffs up… when we become unteachable it is a sure sign Pride has entered in and consumes like a fire everything and every living thing around him.  In its wake… there is only death, destruction and emptiness… that vast void from the beginning… it returns full circle.  What once was… is and will be… there is nothing new under the sun…

God Knows man’s heart… how his soul is bent on self… me, myself and I… famous last words of those who die… empty, alone and full of regret!

And still…all I see…

God … Is… Good!

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TRANFORMATION

In God’s Garden of Eden… there is life… light… love. Love that corrects error as much as it shows mercy in our ignorance… and yet does justice against willful wickedness! We want mercy but when wronged… we want justice!   That is the core of human selfishness! ME, ME, ME! What about ME?

So God ‘s garden… is a place of rules.. to keep order… every law… in nature ie…science, math… even the unseen spirit world is under laws… these are not to keep us from having fun but to protect, to keep order, to keep boundaries between good and evil! We with our evil eye see God as evil… how  corrupt can we be?  How twisted… like the serpent…the snake the accuser  of our souls.   We side with him instead of God.  We declare war on God for being evil… blind to the enemy who pretends to be our closest friend.  20150806_071709.jpg

How many of us have our own rules… in our own little finite kingdom?  How we pick and choose… who is allowed in our garden?

HUMMMM!   Food for thought… who do we welcome into our garden to eat and drink and enjoy our wealth, riches and provisions… a select few I imagine…  Where do we get that from? God?   Does he allow just anyone into his garden?  does he allow the wicked to come in to kill steal and destroy all the good he has created for us to enjoy in his presence?

How many want Heaven… but do not want God?

Think about it… we all want the good life… who is good… But God?   Are we good… all the time?   One must endeavor to know God.  To know the Truth…

And still… all I see…

God is Good… only Good!

 

 

 

Songs of the Heart

When the music within is louder than the things of this world… there is where I want to BE!

20161118_163846In the stillness of the morning light I find myself smiling inside and out. The long winter days of clouds and snow have taken their toll on my soul. I set myself in direct line with the sunlight bursting over the horizon. Basking in the intense light reminds of  the Garden Of Eden.

I close my eyes and meditate on the goodness of My Creator. I hear a song in the distance.  It is my soul rejoicing.  I focus on the music as it gets louder.  I feel it move me within. I begin to dance in my spirit like a dream I do not wish to wake from.

I can smell the fragrance of the flowers in the breeze.  Breathtaking, captivating and yet exhilarating is the sound of the music wooing me deeper and deeper into the unknown.  I hear a whisper, I turn quickly.  I am delighted by the sight of my Beloved. He sings his song to me and I dance to his delight.  He joins me in the dance of love and my heart longs for him.

He sweeps me off my feet and carries me away into the garden where the flowers are most pleasant to my soul.   We sit awhile in the soft grassy knoll overlooking the meadow below. I see clearly the kingdom in all its glory. The things I remember come flooding back to me. I feel the aching in my heart.

I sing from my soul, He hears and smiles at me. I lay my head upon his chest, I feel his love for me.  When Love becomes a song in the soul; two become one.  Soul mates forever they sing the same song in tune with the other.  Harmony; like the sound of the wind in the trees.  Its rustling sounds like the waters of the River of Life.

He takes me by the hand and walks me through the garden to the place beside the River and there we rest.  I soak my feet in the waters that rush through my toes. I smile; he watches me. Coming from the water he gives me a drink and it refreshes me… quenching my thirst but not my desire for him whom my heart loves.

As we sit and talk of things great and small, I find my heart longing for him more and more.  His Words draw me, call to me and I am captivated by the sound of his voice. The secrets, the mysteries to wonderful for me, I cling to him as though he were my very breath.

Again we walk; through the forest he leads me. He tells me stories of old. The ancient ways long forgotten by mankind but never forgotten by him.  He speaks Truth and I hang on to every word wondering who could remember all that he speaks.  He tells me I do not have to remember; for all recreation reveals the Truth. It is written… in everything seen and unseen.

The wind brushes my face and I know his Spirit is near. I can feel him covering me with his glory.  I am free; free from the flesh that holds me captive, anchored in the natural realm. He has taught me how to ascend and descend.. though I never want to leave his presence.

I find his truth compels me to return, to tell the truth I have been shown.  When I am feeling alone I turn my soul to sing him a song.  I feel him respond to the music in which I delight in him.  I dance and yet no one sees.  I speak to him and no one hears.  He whispers back to me and again… no one hears his sweet words to my soul.

The music never ends… unless I turn it off, shut it out of my soul.  But then where would I go to find my beloved if not in the joy of singing his praises.   He is my delight, how can I be silent?

Here I am.  I sing a song, making music within my soul. Overwhelmed I find myself dancing to the music no one else can hear.  Its just me and you, You and me… together… in the secret place.  You can come; stay as long as you like my Beloved, my Joy, my Delight.  I can not depart from you. You are my song, the music within me, the reason I dance even when no one else can see…

I am dancing on the inside even when I sleep.

Vision

Within man is the notion… we know it all. In the end we realize how little we know…

cropped-phone-downloads-2871.jpgI find myself at a loss for words. I have a dream, a vision given to me by God.   His Spirit reminds me daily not to let it go but to keep it in the forefront of my mind.  I dream in the night and I am taken away from this world into the vision I had so long ago. I remember the day I was resurrected from death. I did not wake up here on earth, though at the time… I did not know I was “not” on earth.

I remember the moments of great fear and moments of deep sorrow confronted by my past . I never realized how my past had created my present and could destroy my future.  As I learned each and every fear in me was rooted in deception.  Ignorance was no friend to me.   The more I learned from the Kingdom of God the more I realized how I depended on what others said and did to me to determine my worth, my value, my purpose.

I was not aware God is good.  It sounds so simple yet when taught from a child God is watching everything I do… waiting for me to fail… to punish me for my sin to cast me into hell… forever.  As a child I did not know what sin was?   All I understood is if people were not pleased with me than neither was God.   I was doomed… no one every encouraged me but reminded me of how disappointing I was to them.    I could never do enough. I could never be …good  enough.  How does one succeed in life… adulthood… believing the lie… I was worthless.  I can still hear the words… Why are you so stupid?   They still ring in my mind at random moments when I feel ignorant. When I do not know the answers to solve the problems I encounter every day.  Everything I try to do…fails.  How could I ever please God?

I admit… I gave God “a run for the money”  I am sure I tested his patience to the limit. How many times did he want to give up on me and just get rid of me… throw me away… like everyone else.   I never knew… How much He Loved Me!

When He finally broke through the walls I had built around my soul, around my life and around my body… to keep everyone out… because no one ever cared enough to protect me. I never knew security. I never knew … Love.  How He… God… managed to find His way into my heart.. I still can not grasp it.  He never gave up… day after day he kept speaking good into my ears.   I could not receive the Words He spoke.  It sounds arrogant, rebellious, foolish,  some call it pride.  If I had any pride hiding in me it was knowing I was not as stupid as everyone spoke into me.  I knew I was not loved.. they say they love but love does not hurt another for ones own benefit.

I have no recollection of time… there is no time in the Kingdom of God.  It was always “day”… there is always Light.  I do not mean light as we know light. I mean light that is ALIVE!  It has Life, Energy, Force within it.  It drew me like a magnet, a force I had no strength to resist.  So I learn this is God, His Presence, His Goodness, His Love.  It radiates like being catapulted out of ones body and being set free… free from the weight of the flesh.  I could breath LIFE!

Everyone who hears my testimony asks me if I saw streets of gold, mansions, pearly gates, the precious jewels in the New Jerusalem.   I tell them I saw nothing of the sort. I was taught in the Garden.  God knew  what I needed… It was not gold, sliver, diamonds, and rubies.. I did not need a mansion or angels serving me all the food I wanted.  I did not need wealth, riches or possessions.  I needed… THE TRUTH!  I wanted to know Why God Hated me so!

I did not know in the beginning the man’s name taking care of me in my dead state was Yehoshua, whom Christians call “JESUS”.  I knew His name all my life… It was beat into my head, He was the one that would sentence me to hell, because I was bad!   All I knew, is this kind, gentle, quiet man  never said anything mean to me.  I never knew a man to be “nice”.  I watched him… waiting for him to slip up and reveal His “true colors”. This was not the “JESUS” I was taught.

I do not know how long I was in the Kingdom of God, I only know I never wanted to leave the place I wanted to call home.  I was never rushed, never pushed, never forced to do anything!  If I spoke error… I was corrected in such a way I wanted to learn the right way to speak.  The Truth always prevailed to change my thinking.  Changing my thinking changed my heart, changing my heart changed my life!

I can not compare this world to that world.  There were flowers and trees and meadows; endless meadows, wide open and untouched, unspoiled by man’s hands and evil inventions.  God’s creation needs no improvements by man’s imaginations.  There is water everywhere rivers of fresh Living Water. An Orchard  where there is always fruit and it never rots!  It is not just refreshing but healing to my soul. I received revelation there in the Orchard, just how much The Father loves me.  It changed me. I will never be the same again.  Once I tasted the Love of God I could not turn away even if it cost me my life.  There is nothing I would not do… just to see the smile on His face again.  I can not say “NO” to Him.  He tests my words even to this day.  Not even pain or suffering… not even the enemy can turn me away from focusing on His face. If I could draw a picture of what I had seen in his eyes no one would be able to resist Him.  All those pictures we see of Jesus, they do no justice to the “real thing”!

My days in the Kingdom never end, even though I offer myself to return and tell the Truth of what I was taught.  I was taught how to ascend and descend the Kingdom.  There are days I admit… I want to go Home.  I cry… my soul longing to return to that touchable God I never new loved me.

Here back in the earth, nothing is the same. I see differently. I hear different. I feel different.  I walk different. Though rejected by humans… called a heretic, a liar, a deceiver, I have even been called… a JEW!   As though I would be offended by that LABEL!  I know I was made a Jew in the Kingdom even though I did not know what a Jew was.  “JESUS” is a Jew so why would I be offended by being called a Jew? I receive that as a compliment.  I do not mean to say I do what Jews do… the man made rituals.

I am Just Jesus… if he said it… I do it… its simple… man makes it difficult!  I listen to what He tells me to do even if it sounds crazy, legalistic, or counters the Written WORD!   It may be ok for others to demand there rights… legally… Written in the Word.  We argue with God but God wins if You are Possessed by His Spirit!  If not… your Will rebels against God’s Will. What he will allow others to do… He does not allow me to do.   Why I do not know except He is testing my obedience to the very core of my faith in Him. Those random Acts of Obedience that he speaks to me at a moments notice… will I surrender… giving up my plans, my routine, my ideas and my list of things to do for His agenda!  All for the sake… just to test my immediate obedience.

There is a reward for obedience. I do not care what the church preaches and teaches… obedience to God’s voice… to His Word… Written or Spoken has great rewards…To be in His presence and hear His voice revealing secrets… mysteries and revelations that I can not tell anyone but discuss them only with Him alone.   Why do I say this… because He wants this kind of RELATIONSHIP with all of us.

We choose how close we want to be to God… the more we crucify our soul… our own thoughts, imaginations, thinking, reasoning, understanding and knowledge.  When we surrender our heart to Him… letting go of the emotions that force us to react to all the evil done to us.   Actions speak louder than words!  It is not difficult to see who has crucified the heart and surrenders to God’s love!   No one has the power to make you sin… you must give them the power over you, to surrender your  authority to another just as Adam and Eve did in the Garden.  The weaker always surrenders to the stronger.  Who is stronger good or evil?  Overcome evil with its opposite… the evil is twisted goodness.  Every lie begins with a partial truth!

I return to earth with a vision… to tell the TRUTH.  I write everything He says to me… I find each word builds on a previous Word. Everything is connected, just like creation. One is founded on the other… remove one piece and creation is thrown out of balance! Remove one part of God’s Word and the rest is thrown out of balance!   This is where man has failed… He has removed the Law!  The Law is the Word!   The Word is Yehoshua, whom you call Jesus!  Take the Law away and you remove Jesus from the Word.  Take away the Law and one becomes Lawless!   Take away the Law… and even sinners can not be brought to justice!   No Law means No One… not even the wicked can be judged for sin because the Law reveals what is sin… what destroys LIFE!  What destroys LIGHT and LOVE!   God is all these things… Take away the Law and you take God out of the world, out of creation, out of man… what is left… chaos, darkness, a void so vast it is like a black hole that never ends. We return to Genesis 1.

The oximoron of it all… we do not want to be judged… when we sin… but if someone sins against us … WE WANT JUSTICE… IMMEDIATELY… WITHOUT MERCY… WITHOUT GRACE AND WE WANT TO BE THE JUDGE, JURY AND JAILOR! WE WANT TO CARRY OUT THE SENTENCE OURSELVES AND GIVE THEM EVERY STRIPE THEY DESERVE!

SO WHERE IS THE SCRIPTURE … Do to others what You want done to you!   What you want God to do to you! What you have done to others you do to Jesus!  We reap what we sow!   These famous scriptures are always twisted to suit our own benefit!  Without Justice evil prospers!   We now call good evil and evil good! We call Righteousness sin and wickedness good.  We call correction, discipline and holiness evil.  But rebellion disobedience and pride is good!   The wicked will destroy themselves… because they know not God’s Light, Love or Truth!

My vision… To be Light, Love And Truth.  To Be Holy, Pure in spirit, soul and body so the Light and Love of God is seen… felt and for the world to Know…

God is Not dead!

He Lives!